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Many times we find ourselves at crossroads in life, we struggle to fully understand what decision we should be making, what would be the best all the way around. What would be the best may sometimes have to be something we hate or dislike. Life is constantly on our shoulders holding us down, forcing us to make such decisions, I say there are only two decisions we will always have and one is concocted in our minds and the other in our hearts. At times we have to chose one over the other, its for the best we say, its better this way. Is our hearts wants truly whats best for us? Is it always right to go with what we feel is right over what we THINK is right?! I suppose its all on the person in question, I, however, am a fan of the heart and feeling what is right, we know it, why don't we just do it? We think we know whats better, whats in our mind its all planned out and figured out, but, is that really true?! I don't know I'll leave that for each person to decide on their own, but for me for now, ill continue to follow my heart...

“Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.”

What's it all about?

Sometimes I don't understand why we as people tent to go after something that is either, not meant to be or just over with, but we keep chasing it as it was the last meal on earth, as if we could not live without it. I say this in regards to whatever it may be, a person, object, maybe SOME goals or dreams we have, but thats loosely, obviously if our biggest goal is to be a fucking cereal box, well, thats just uncalled for tu sabes?! Ok so why do we do it? Why do we choose [this is in regards to a person] to chase someone that will continually hurt us, as if to say, they are the only person left that will love us or make us feel the way we have grown to love to feel. As someone who has been in this position before and dare I say may be again, cause well, I'm human, but I'll continue learning and questioning the wonders of life...I feel that even though we may go through this sort of experience, there should be a fine line between kind of figuring out and knowing when to just move on, stop trying to make something that is out of your hands come back into them, especially if you know this person is just no good for you, knowing they have already hurt you numerous times, just let it go, I'm sorry, yes it sucks, yes it hurts, but in the end you will find out that you can still go on and live your life just as you did before they were in it. As far as other objects and things i.e. material goods and money and all that bullshit, well... I have always known money and material goods always make people act funny, funny in the sense that they always want more. Money changes a person. We all end up wanting more and more to the point of no contentment. Yes money plays a role in who is your friend and what you can and can't do at times, however should it be that way? My answer is NO! This may not apply to every person/friendship/relationship, but in majority it plays a big role. If we could live in a world without money I would certainly go for that. Unfortunately that could never happen. Be content or at least try, you can have all the money in the world, but it's not going to make you happy forever, trust. I know I've written about this before but oh well, blow me.

Remember the people who mean the most to you, don't lose them, and don't let the ones who actually matter go unnoticed.

"Always standing when standing isn't easy."

we all have to fall before we can appreciate standing again. to learn to appreciate and be grateful for everything you come in contact with. ill have some new stuff up shortly. have to get back into the swing of things, have had a lot on my plate lately. & school coming up. keep in touch.