Could it be?!

Theres times when we feel so low not even the king of happiness could help, numb to every touch, voice, sight, taste, and smell, our senses become still. We are pushed down to our knees and don’t even bother trying to get up, we feel helpless and not sure we even deserve to get up. But, if we allow the goodness to come into our hearts and minds maybe we could begin to let the horribleness that has weighed us down begin to fade. Maybe our eyes can be freed from darkness, we can allow ourselves to be content for once, maybe even happy. It may seem far fetched, but you’re not the only one who wants to see you happy. We all want that unattainable happiness, we not only spend our lives seeking it, but sometimes we don’t realize we have it when we really do. I believe many things can lead to happiness, not just our unconceivable dreams and goals that sometimes seem just out of reach. We surround ourselves by loved ones because that itself makes us happy. Think about the last time you were really happy, was it because you were in great company, or because you got some materialistic thing…It could be both or the materialistic item, but really come on, at the end of the day would you rather have someone to talk to you someTHING to look at and be happy you got yet sad you have no one around to share it with…? Were never alone, and I don’t know about the rest of you, but I’m not the type to just let someone go unhappy. I like to be able to say or know that I’ve helped or brightened someones day in any fashion, it feels good. You don’t have to be alone if you don’t want to. You don’t have to hurt or feel sad or upset because you feel no ones there. Theres always someone.

“Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.”

“Courage is the art of being the only one who knows you're scared to death.”

When you least expect it, it hits you! Least expect what? That’s the thing…anything! I guess the purpose of this post is to just say that sometimes we get so caught up in something we are blinded by everything else, every reason, thought, or gesture of anything else [in terms of maybe a love relationship or friendship, something like that where youre just not seeing the harm ur doing or what have you]. If, but hopefully when you step outside of all of that, like really really step outside and leave it all, you soon look back and will be able to say, “what the fuck was i thinking?!” haha. I know it sounds funny but its really true. & sadly it can make you feel very childish and immature. maybe even leading you to lose friends or whatever. but you can’t really help it sometimes youre so lost in yourself and whatever it is that you dont want to see anything else, untill you wise up and face the facts for what they really are. either way once you do it shows the change in you and how youre learning from it all, at least thats what i would like to think happens, i guess i can write from experience. anyway i guess thats it.

“Be brave, take risks, nothing can substitute experience.”

Uncommon

It is not uncommon for a man to believe he is invincible. It is not uncommon for a man to think he is weak & inferior. It is not uncommon for a man to beg for forgiveness. It is not uncommon for a man to scream he is right at the top of his lungs as he throws his fist into the air. It is not uncommon for a man to have all the money in the world yet posses nothing of true value in his life. What would be uncommon would be to see a man [a person] struggle [even sometimes not] to live out his dreams, to pursue with every inch of his body his aspirations and goals to the end. Not simply give up and tap out of life because they are too old or because it is too late now. It would be uncommon to see a man fight for his family to the end rather than just walk away and begin another because he wasn't ready the first time around. It would be uncommon for a man to speak his true voice and be seen in a light that he is all afraid to be seen in. It is uncommon to truly be yourself in a world that strives on making you out to be just like everyone else. It is common to try to be yourself and actually just be like everyone else. It is uncommon to actually not try to be different, but to truly truly be true to yourself.

Oh, Hello.

Alright, so lately I've been noticing some things & I guess I've grown to appreciate them. So much so that it has been very different lately, I don't feel so alone anymore. I am for the most part enjoying my time with new friends and growing to learn how to trust and understand I am not the only one who understands me anymore. I am saved and I would seriously lose it if it had not been for any of this. It is amazing and I hope for nothing but new & great things to come.

"Friendship is a strong and habitual inclination in two persons to promote the good and happiness of one another."