All good things must come to an end.

So lately I've seen this pattern with things. Like the world is saying: "Alright have your fun and all, but soon something will happen that you won't like, that'll teach you to feel happy!" haha. But seriously it's felt that way and I'll give you a good example from today that happened, where I felt exactly like this...

Today my day went rather well. I enjoyed it thoroughly. I got up and went to classes, came home had a great lunch, took a nap, woke up & played guitar hero lol. After that went to Riverside and did some hiking with the boys, it was so awesome. The view was great. We went to the highest point we could find [which wasnt easy by the way, I am horribly out of shape! Shut up!] but we went up and standing on top of those rocks and looking over the view and the wind in our faces, it was great, it was like a moment of bliss. Great place to think, or to get your work out on, in any case I did both, haha. We want to go back and do it as much as we can. Anyway I know you're thinking what I was..How could this day possibly get worse, its been great! Walking to my car I notice a sign as I'm just looking around and it says no parking entire block, begins here. So, I look down and of course I am parked right ahead of this sign which I failed to see earlier when I parked, walking ahead a little more I already knew it! I got a ticket!! 43 dollhairs! dammit I say! so that killed my mood, well at least for a few minutes, I can barely afford to breath, now I have to pay this ticket too!! SHEESH! haha. oh well lesson learned, but yes, nothing good can stay, or as the movie states, nothing gold can stay. I've had other great days like this where something at the end just kills it, but what doesn't actually kill us makes us stronger right?! so yeah well that was my day.

"Whether you think you can or whether you think you can't, you're right."

p.s. if u want to see pics from today check them out here. i was too lazy to post pics on both blogs.

We are always running for the thrill of it, thrill of it.

What is passion and why do we have it, why do we keep it?

Looked it up: a strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything.

What is passion really though, how do we connect with it? Is it something we think we are fascinated with and slowly let go of like an old bike or other external object we once loved and then kicked to the curb? Is passion something we desire and once we attain it, it would no longer be our desire to have it? Its like we look for passion and we indulge in it, but once we get it, it becomes old and we look for the next thing to blow our minds away. So why, why do we have something like passion, as well as other things like desire and want and love, which in a sense can all fall under the same category, but not exactly the same. Why do we throw passion away after we receive it? Or maybe I can ask why are we afraid to keep it? Why is it we are so concerned with what we don't have rather than what we do?! I am not writing this blog to answer my own questions at this point, I know what I feel inside and usually I would write out what I feel about this, but I don't want that for this particular blog, I guess I wanted to open your minds and maybe see how everyone else feels on the subject. I will, however, say this...When you are passionate about something, see it through till the end and never give up no matter what, even after you have attained what you seek, keep it lovingly, because without passion for something, what does it really mean to you? We do the things we love because they make us happy, be it riding a bike, being a parent, loving a friend or spouse, being a big brother/sister, helping someone, making a life for yourself you never thought possible, or even just appreciating your life and living it to the fullest and doing nothing. I wrote this blog with passion, even if it didn't make much sense...haha...

"I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of."

I've been dying to reach you.

I've always wanted it to be this way I just had no clue it would come so fast. Spinning lights, fog away my worries, I know with the fast paced world aside me it'll be okay. I cannot quite grasp this meaning of uncertainty, but I think this undying voice inside my head will lead me to my eternity. I am lost in a sea of self delusions and unwanted fears of myself. If I cast along side thee ultimate high can I stay forever?

“Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point.”

Don't call me by my full name.

i cant begin to image you without me, youve become everything you claimed you werent. i said this line over and over to myself, because it was true, it made me upset and kind of sad. you may not think its true, but after all the crap that went through my mind i found it pretty true. nothings ever what we expect.

I want to get out of this place, but where would i go, what would i do? i may not have it all down and i may not be exactly what you wanted, but i hope youre happy with the choices youve made, and i dont mean that in an asshole way, i truely mean it. if none of the things happened the way they did i wouldnt be where i am today, and i wouldnt see things the way i do now. im learning from every single thing, im learning that things go on even without you. im smiling even when i didnt think i had anything left to smile over, this wasnt the easiest thing to do so im pretty content with whats going on. its allowed me to further step outside of myself. i dont need to follow things step by step, im just having fun and living my life, letting everything fall into place. yeah i have my moments of weakness but it happens to the best of us. im starting to figure out that im not alone in this world and the more i allow myself to see this the more i learn that people arent such assholes after all and as long as you give some a chance you learn they can change you in ways you didnt think possible and that sometimes it just takes one to understand you and feel your pain and be ok with it, or in this case my own. maybe i wanna jump without looking sometimes. maybe i want to let go even tho im not sure what might happen, i just want to go!!! whatever that means.

p.s. HI RONZIE!

"Courage is the power to let go of the familiar."

Thats life though, you keep gambling till you hit the jackpot.

Sometimes its hard not because others keep you down, but because you keep yourself down...