your words are like knifes...

At times we reflect and other times dwell. Sometimes, we tend to think about the things that hurt us the most. Someone that hurt us, either, physically or emotionally. Often more times than none, we think about these things, not to cause more pain to ourselves, but to... well sometimes yes to cause more pain, or to remember why we are mad, or angry and to stay that way. Or just for no other reason we can concoct in our head that seems logical enough as to why we are thinking such things. We do it till we get that lump in our throat, that pain in our stomach and that slight loss of breath, that when we think about it, it's as if we stop breathing for just a moment. So much so that we may shed a little tear and then remember we are not supposed to waste feelings on such things...

Why Annie, why are you writing about this? Well I will tell you all. Tonight, as I was online, some thoughts running through my head...I was sad because I missed something, well, I thought I missed something, I became overwhelmed as I sent "sometimes its still hard to think of all that you once had, and realize you just dont have it anymore..." to twitter as one of my many tweets. It's true you know, tell me you have never done this before, that you've never thought about something, and even for a moment felt heavy, because you know it's all gone, even though you thought at one point you would never ever lose it. Poof! Just like that it is no more... Just like that, how is that possible? How? I guess we ask many questions like this, but we seldom ever get the answers we'd like. Instead, we come to our own realizations and answers that usually seem to settle and put us at ease. As people, we must learn many things in life and go through certain events that we will not like, but in this, we learn about ourselves, we find the person, the real person inside of us and wonder how we could have been so foolish. We move on... Relationships, of any kind, come in and out of our lives and the best we can do is just go along with the ride until the next one begins. We shouldn't sit around and dwell, stress and complain about the things in which we cannot control. My friend once told me that just because you let go, doesn't mean you have to forget and the sooner you can let go, the sooner you can move on. I think she was right, thanks Marina ;] I guess sometimes it's just better to let go and enjoy everything for what it was and just let the past be exactly what it is...the past. We are not getting any younger, so lets just live and let live. There should be no wonder about the rest, just let it flow.

"Everything thats supposed to happen, will happen."

I will just leave it at that...