It's funny how you look back on a lot of things. How you changed, how you see things now as opposed to before. You remember how simple things used to be, how easier it was to just be a kid or teen, and run around with really no care at all. All the dumb things you did & how funny it was at the time, but when you think back its like, "shit I could have really gotten hurt!". I guess that's what its all about growing up, making mistakes and learning from them, having "innocent" fun and just running wild. Everything just seemed so easy and careless. Unless of course you were forced to grow up fast and miss out on a lot of what it means to be a child...*shrugs* it happens, but I won't touch that topic right now, maybe in another blog.
Have I talked about second chances yet? I can't remember so I want to touch on it for a minute...What do you think about it? Does a person deserve a second chance? & I'm not talking about petty things for second chances, not like oh he cheated on a test should he get a second chance? Ah [in the wise words of V] Suck it!! I'm talking about real life this person screwed me over second chances. Come on people wake up! Ok, seriously, let me put you in a scenario and you tell me what YOU would do!... Lets say you're living with someone and its all fine whatever, but after a while u find out they have a few problems, they drink too much, they bring random drugged up people home and are just overall fucking up, not even worth anything and then they start causing problems. Like not paying rent anymore, starting arguments, just your typical asshole. Lets say over time with all these problems arising, they end up getting into an argument and basically cussing out your significant other and basically kicking you out, choosing drugs and a life of shame over everything else. Do they deserve a second chance? Is it possible for a person to change their ways to such an extent that this can be forgiven? In my opinion no fuck them you know, why should anyone care so much to give a person like this a second chance? They didn't care to treat you like shit before, why should you care now? I know a lot of you might think this is pretty heartless, but screw that. I seriously can go on forever, but I don't want to be here all night...
Ok, last thing...I'm really tired of so much bullshit being on my mind lately, seriously it's just driving me crazy, but I'd say I'm pretty good at not letting it show. I don't want to feel anxious all the time, like I'm not doing anything right or that there's something that I should be doing and not actually doing it...idk what that is though! I'm just trying to get by right now, as in finish school and keep on living, I mean what else is there to do? Idk look at me however you want, I'm just tired of always being tired with myself, lately one of the big helps I've had getting away from all the shit in my head is because of my friend veronica, had I not met her, well lets just say I'm really glad I have her to talk to these days and hang out with, it's refreshing to have someone like her on my side. School starts soon, and I'm praying I go all in this semester and not drop one class, cause if I can it'll hopefully mean my last full semester before I can transfer and I will be soo happy about that, so lets just keep our fingers crossed.
"People of mediocre ability sometimes achieve outstanding success because they don't know when to quit. Most men succeed because they are determined to."
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