Wow.

Tonight brought a couple things to mind that I will begin to share with you all here. First, I found out my niece wants to move back out here with us. Saying she needs to change, wants to change, and also wants structure. Hmm, that make me think, it made me think if she was being honest and truly wants to change for once. While she is still very young, it just makes me think how serious she is. Anyway enough of that...

I hate when a person tries to be so serious and no one takes them seriously, or see's what they are trying to do. It is one thing to hear a person, but a completely different thing to actually listen to them. Have the dignity to actually hear them out, listen to whats really going on and take some fucking courage to face up to whats happening. If you're doing something and you're in it for certain reasons, then nothing, NOTHING, should get in the way of that. No excuses, no whining, no bullshitting. If you're in it, be in it to win it. Don't let bullshit things get in the way, don't let anyone hinder your feelings, if people don't get you, let them go. Move on and find others who will be in it as much as you are if you have to. And if you're sticking around for all the wrong reasons, have the decency to leave, be practical, don't drag something on for longer than it has to be. Make changes you want to see happen. Everything thats meant to happen will happen. I feel none of us will truly make it where we want to be unless we know that we are in it for all the right reasons. That no matter what we will continue to push and give it all we have to get there. Even if it's alone.

Sometimes it's really hard to let go, of anything, we don't know how or where to start. At times it feels like the hardest thing we have to do. We know we have to, so why do we drag it on for so long? .....