"Will your heart still race for me, or will it march to a new beat?"

Our minds are powerful tools. The mind can trick us and get many of us into certain situations better left untouched, as well as better situations. Most times we use basic common sense to make decisions, other times we are torn, we do not know which way to go or what to decide for the life of us. I'm tired of some instances where I let my mind win, even though I know my heart is in the right place, my mind gets a hold of me and possesses me in such a way that I am paralyzed, I let it win, take over and be still me. Stunned in my place I take the leave, not even turning back, yet cursing and hating myself the entire time for taking that exit, the easy way out. I'm not afraid, but when my mind gets a hold of me, it's as if I'm a five year old frozen in my place facing the two headed monster, which is really some good for nothing kid named bob in a play characters outfit trying to entertain me and other children. I envy those less frightened bastards, not because they have the courage to keep going and not let bob scare them, but because that leaves less of them by my side. Leaves me feeling alone and empty, I want to be running around too. Why can't I? what's holding me back, I'm free I know I can do it, I ask myself these questions when I don't muster up the courage to run with the others, or even on my own for that matter. I feel like moving my legs, but I don't, I can't, in my head I am running, sprinting, but the reality is when I look down, I am still in the same place. I am sick of this place, It will be the death of me trying to get away, I've spent my entire life doing this, it's very much like clockwork now, I want to break that cycle now. I don't know what the hell took me so long, I'm very weary of it now, it's past due at this point for me to be leaving this all behind me. What you ask, well if you know me, you may have a hint of what I am talking about, but if not...well, it's really just a battle within myself that you need not worry about really. It's like pushing boulders, yeah...

"Great changes may not happen right away, but with effort even the difficult may become easy."