With all the things that I forgot to say racing through my mind.

My title came from a city and colour [dallas green] song called body in a box. which brought up tonights blog, so here goes nothing.


Where do I want to be at before my death and what I would like to happen after my death? I guess I would hope to have lead a happy life, whether that be rich, poor, or anywhere in the middle, however, I am not concentrating on money right now. Before I die I hope to have achieved my purpose in life, everything I wanted to do in terms of being happy and the way I envisioned myself leading some sort of adventure, hopefully that makes sense. I wouldn't want any bad blood with anyone. I would hope that before I passed I got to see amazing places with people I love and adore the most in life. I would want to live out my life with no regrets and just know that I took chances, made mistakes and learned from them. I don't want to have to ask myself "what if" or anything of such after I have lived my life, I want to be old and be able to say, "let me tell you about the time I..." Those moments will define my life, my happiness will define my life, and every step along with way will help determine the next. Of course all this I say in terms of what I WANT to happen, I'm hoping it actually will, one can only hope, and what would we have if we didn't have hope? Not a whole lot I'd tell you that. Hope keeps us going, but this post isn't about hope. All I can really hope for in my life is that I lead a somewhat decent and humble one, one without regrets and one filled what more love than I could possibly handle. I just want to be happy, and at the very least content in that happiness. 


After I pass I wouldn't want people to be sad, I would want them to go on living of course. As far as how I would want to die, probably like most people, a painless one. Very old and in my sleep. But, however God chooses to take me is how I will go. In some way would want to be buried six feet under, for the simple fact that my loved ones would have a place to go and visit me and I would hope that I am loved enough to get semi-regular visitors to talk to me. Remember me and at times miss me because I meant a great deal to them. However, I would also want to be made into ashes and spread across some piece of land. Sort of like being set free. 


"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching."